I’ve set this post up to publish at the same time as I am starting down the next fork in the road. I shouldn’t make it sound like I am the only one on this journey, my husband is very much by my side on this particular journey. But this morning he is at work in town and…..
At this very moment I am milking cows. Probably doesn’t seem odd for me to be milking. I mean I call myself “Dairy Carrie”, milking cows has to be part of that doesn’t it? Well for me, yes, milking cows is something that I want as part of my life but for the past 2.5 years it really hasn’t been. Hubs and I have kept as much of a presence in daily farm things as we possibly could and tried every path we could find that would lead us beck towards our ultimate goal of dairy farming full time. But the animals we own are being milked by other people right now and we have been mostly feeding calves and taking care of dry cows on a part time basis. I blogged about our journey and the situation we found ourselves stuck in a little bit here and here. The entire time we have been off the farm we have kept looking for a new place to start our future and we continually ran into road blocks. To the point where we became incredibly discouraged and felt like maybe dairy farming isn’t what we would end up doing. There just didn’t seem to be a way.
Fast forward to today. This morning I am milking cows. I am milking cows that I know, mostly the daughters of the cows that taught me to love dairy cows. Despite the deep hurt and pain that left us with no farm to call our own when family issues caused Hubs and I to leave his parent’s farm, this morning I am once again milking on their farm. Changes in life have made an opening where there had been nothing but solid walls. We are still not sure what lays beyond the opening, we’re taking baby steps, but this morning I am milking cows again. I finally feel the piece of the puzzle sliding into place. I don’t know why the path to this point has been so very, very difficult but here we are at the start of the next chapter. So while I milk the cows this morning I ask you to send up some good thoughts for us. We’re going to need them as we figure out what the next step means for us.
Sorry to disappoint the neighborhood rumor mill, but farm is not for sale, we hope to keep the family farm rolling into the future.
Wish us luck, we’re going to need it and order extra cheese on that pizza, would ya?